And... We're Awake!!!

Alright I'm not totally recovered from Daylight savings yet, but I'm not grumpy anymore. Which is good. I'm still tired, but spring break is coming up (now that is springy) so I'll be able to catch up on all the sleep I've losted since we came back from Christmas Break.

Today was interessting. The last two classes were shortened so that we could have a commisioning assembly. A bunch of missions teams are going out over spring break. One of my bestest friends is on one of the trips. She's going to Costa Rica. She leaves tomorrow.

My youth is down in LA on a missions trip as well (the one I wanted to go on. Did I mention this earlier?) So yesterday the youth was cut down in half and then some. There was more girls then guys, and there was four maybe five people who were actually in highschool. The rest were middle schoolers. We were watching a Youth Bites on Raves and escapism. And after we were in small groups talking about it, and my youth leader had asked what escapism was like, and I blurted out "spiritual cavities." This idea came about because he said constintly trying to escape reality through raves, or music, or book, or TV was like candy. Alright once in a while, but not in excess. And then we were coming up with a whole line of spiritual dentistry. The list being:

Escapism and sin: Cavities

Prayer: Emanil

Bible: Toothbrush

Worship: Toothpaste

Love: Gold fillings

Faith: Silver fillings

Hope/joy: White fillings

Jesus: Dentist

Holy Spirt: Dental Hygienist

Yes we were on task.

Anyway. Ich must schlafen, und tazen gehen. (I have to go sleep. And dance.) Dance first.

Nighty-night.

Aurum.

Way To Tired

Who ever thought of the idea of daylights savings? He should have to wear a sign that says "I don't value sleep! I'm really odd!" I am so tired. It took me TEN minutes to get out of bed this morning! TEN MINUTES! All because of the stupid 'spring ahead' stupidity. It ain't springy to loose sleep! I NEED SLEEP!

Enough of me mumbling. Well I talked to my phineas group leader about the whole other group thing, and it turns out the youth paster doesn't know me well enough to let me lead a group. (I, of course, am completely happy. I now don't have to figure out to get OUT of leading a group of pre-teens!)
Anyway. I'm in the middle of math class, nothing important is going on. I've just finished a quiz and am waiting for the rest of the class to hurry up and finish it as well. I'm also trying not to fall asleep. Again blame the guy without a mind that made this stupid dailightsavings for this.

Toodles.

Aurum.

And so the insanity continues

Well this has been an interesting couple of weeks. Full of ups downs and round a whatever-there-called. One long endless roller coaster. Sometimes one long endless boring roller coaster. I don't like roller coasters. To darn scary. But that's besides the point.

I had gotten this idea for a group in my youth. For the pre-teen and younger teen girls, on dressing modestly and getting away from obsessing about about brand name clothes and make-up and 'looking' good. I told my Phineas (small group/cell group) leader about this and she actually told the youth paster about it. Now I do not know as of yet what he said about it, but I know that I really don't like the idea any more. As I think as it was my idea i would be asked to lead it, and I'm not good with people as I've said before. I DO NOT LIKE PEOPLE! I'm not a people person. I would die of humiliation before I even started talking. And if I didn't die of humiliation then I wouldn't make it past actually talking to them. And if I somehow did I would sound hypocritical with what I was talking about. On the whole it was a very bad idea. Or a very good idea if someone else will lead it.

And then after I've decided that this was a terrible idea never to be thought of again (not that it doesn't constantly pop up into my mind wanting me to think about it) I started to retreated as I every so often do into a black cocoon. No I do NOT spin a cocoon around myself I am not a Caterpillar. This is just what I call it when I decided that the world is quite pointless, I don't really fit into it, and people stink. I do this about once twice three, six times a year (OK maybe not six, but I do it at least twice). I sort of feal like I could go into this cocoon for real and I wouldn't notice how black it was because everything is so dark. Granted part of why I felt this way was because I had just watched this movie called Danika. It was supposed to be suspense thriller whatever you want to call it type of movie. The back sounded promising, but the movie stunk. After watching this movie I was thinking 'Well that was a waist of my time.' But then that night, I was thinking about it, and I really started thinking about retreating into the cocoon. But fear not, I didn't. The next day at Church I was fine, and now, Tuesday, I'm back to normal. Whatever normal is for me.

I'll probably post again soon to say what the youth paster said about the idea. How this week went, and all that fun wonderful stuff.

Stay happy.

Aurum.